All About G

I’m lonely. I had four really close friends. One of those friends… well I won’t get into that. Two of those friends never really thought of me as a friend, and the last friend isn’t really a friend judging from the wa she treated and treats me. I have people I talk to, like Francis, and Teisha and Rachael, and even Kim Schmierer. But I don’t really see them often. It really sucks, and I wish I could do something about it, like get some more friends. But silly me, I’m too shy to just go up and talk to anyone. I’m afraid that I’ll make a fool of myself. Silly me should try and follow along in other ppl’s conversations and try to join in. But half the time I don’t know what anyone’s talking about, usually it’s about people or events that I don’t know about.

I’m falling behind in school. I’ve been, I dunno, not feeling up to anything. It’s like I just don’t want to try because it won’t do me a bit of good. And because of it my grades are fucked up. I’m trying to catch up and take care of everything, but I don’t know if I’ll be able to in time. I only have a little over five weeks left.

And lately, especially lately, things don’t seem to be going my way. I have one way of getting rid of this stupid depression: running around and playing soccer. But, from the last game, I fucked up my hamstrings. I think it’s because of the fact that I’m not really in shape like I wanted to be, and then I went and pushed myself too hard in the last game. I can walk, but not without it hurting like hell. So forget running around, the only thing I can do is sit on my ass and do nothing. It’s so frustrating.

:sigh: this is mainly why I’m depressed. It really sucks… didn’t I say that before? That and I’m real tired: I haven’t been getting much sleep. Well today I did, but that’s only cause I’m staying home to rest my legs. That’s not the point. The point is, I’m sad and, well, there isn’t much I can do about it as of yet.

And the worst thig is, it isn’t even fucking Monday T_T.

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