I was thinking about it, and I’ve been thinking about it for a little while. And I realized, if I really wanted to, I could get an eating disorder.
I work at Joe’s and Vinny’s right? Before that I weighed, like, 118 or 120. Now I weigh about 130. And I don’t know why I feel this way, but I feel extremely fat, and I really want to go back down to 120, and my mind keeps saying “Just don’t eat alot! You’ll lose weight that way!” And, I’ve been cutting back on eating and changing my diet around. But it still feels like I just wanna stop eating, at least until I get back down to what I was before. And I’m sitting here, right now, thinking that “omg I’m so fucking fat! I need to lost this weight!!!” I don’t know, it’s really kinda freaky, and I guess I’ll have to be careful with that.
So, if anyone notices that I look really bony, make me eat something.
You know, sweetie, it’s entirely possible that you’re over-reacting just a tiny bit. Generally speaking, eating disorders work like addictions, which means that the victim is usually in denial and is trying to hide it and keep it a secret. The fact that you are willing to go this public with your doubts suggests to me that you’re not really in any danger.
But I’ll keep an eye on you, if it makes you feel any better (as if I wouldn’t do that anyway … )!