So, here I am. Not too long from now after I turn this computer off, I’m going to be packing my stuff into the trunk and leaving for Ithaca. At the moment, I’m kinda really scared, but hopefully I’ll settle in fine, like Brian told me he did. Plus, I’m kinda hungry, which means I should go eat, but that can wait.
It’s kinda hard to believe that I’m actually going off to college. It’s kinda hard to believe that I’m turning 18, and that I’ve come this far. I don’t think my life was exceptionally amazing. It was mediocre, with some problems at home and with friends, but it was expected.
Sure there maybe problems htat I have, or had, in my life, but I’m the way I am because of it. If there was something I could go back and change, it would be eating more tomoatoes last night because they’re freakin delicious.
I’ve made many mistakes, and I’ve learned many lessons. And, well what do you know, I still have, like, 60-70 years to keep going. And geez, I thought 17 years was long as it was.
Looking back on it all, I’m glad things turned out the way they did. The episodes with Eva, Andy, and the most recent one with Kasedy, and my friends, like Jess, Casey, Ethan and Anthony, helped me grow and mature, and they taught me valuable things and gave me many memories to hold onto as I move on. I hope that I’ll get to keep them as friends, and I hope I get to make new ones. I hope that I get to find a guy who I’ll be able to stay with for the rest of my life. I hope that I’ll be successful and prosperous and that I will have many happy days. But most of all, Ihope that I’ll continue to have as much love in my life as I do now. I’m so glad that everone around me is supporting me with what I do. I hope that while I’m gone, the support won’t ever lessen. And I hope you all will be thinking of me, just like I’ll be thinking of you.
I love you Mom and Dad, for being there for me whenever I needed it. There have always be arguements, but if we never fought then something would be wrong. I love you Kimmie for becoming one of my best friends. I hope that I won’t end up wanting the Mangekyo Sharigan (running gag between me and her), you “foolish little sister.” I love my brothers, and although I don’t really spend alot of time with either, I’ll miss them both. Derek, even though you’re always pissing me off to no end, I’ll miss you too and I love you too
Jessica, you have become one of my best friends. You’re really someone I can talk to about anything, and I know that I can trust you. I hope you’ll think of me, and don’t forget me, and I’ll be thinking of you. Tell Ethan I said hi
Ethan, Casey, and Anthony, you three are the best. I only just got to really know you three right before I leave, and it sucks that I won’t be seeing you till around my birthday. But I’ll be thinking of you guys and all the good times. And, yes, I’ll go to a couple of parties for your sakes
Everyone else, I love you all. Thank you so much for being in my life, because I’m sure my life would be very dull if you weren’t in it.
I’ll be thinking of you all.
I love you, too, sweetie. Kimmie and your dad are both basket cases (Dad: “MAH … “) and I don’t know how long that’ll last—probably as long as it take you to get that network cable and start sending them email.
I’m looking forward to keeping up with your blog and your emails, and reading about all the amazing things you’re doing. Most of all, I’m looking forward to watching you find out that you are ready and that, even though you’re there, you’re not really gone from here.
Be safe.
Comment by Me — August 26, 2007 @ 5:53 pm
I am feeling very down right now and somewhat happy…. very confusing to me. Part of me is glad that you are taking the next step in life, but I am also sad because my little girl has grown up and is starting to spread her wings.
I already miss the sound of you singing and laughting as well as your “yelling”. The house seems a little more empty now that you are not here, but I look forward to when you come back in Nov. and will be counting the days.
Don’t ever forget that I love you, more then you will ever know and as long as I live, you will have my love and I will always have a home for you to return to.
You are a VERY important person to me!
With all my love…..
Dad
Comment by Dad — August 26, 2007 @ 7:42 pm