All About G

Haha, I bet you didn’t know I was depressed. Well I was. I still sorta am, and I will now tell you why this is so.

I’m depressed because I’m really lonely. I haven’t really come across anyone here that’s really sparked my interest. Now I know what you’re gonna say. What about your roomie? Aren’t you friends?

Well, yes and no. We get along perfectly fine, and every now and then we’ll have some decent conversations, but we never go out and hang around. It’s the same thing for the other girls on this floor. I get along with all of them, but I just can’t seem to click with them.

I make friends in a weird way. My mom was bothering me about it for a long time, especially because I used to be depressed and lonely. She always asked me, can’t you make friends with the girls on your soccer team, or in chorus, and etc, because you have something in common with them.

Well, it’s sorta complicated. I don’t always make friends because I have something in common. Usually what happens is I meet them and we just click. That’s why I made friends with Ethan and Casey and Anthony, because I met them, and we all just clicked. That’s why I didn’t make friends with any of the girls on my floor, because yea, we get along, but we just didn’t click. The reason why I didn’t make alot of friends (at least, I don’t know if I was friends with them or not… cause they liked me), was because I was just too afraid to. But usually it doesn’t have much to do with things in common so much as it has to do with me and them just clicking. That’s how I ended up being friends with Rachael, because although we have almost nothing in common, when we first met at the pool, we just clicked. And that’s how I ended up being in this predicament. Because for me it seems to be really hard to find people here that I’ll click it. And because of it, at the moment, I’m really lonely. And since I’ve been really lonely, I’ve been really depressed.

Of course, those of you that told me to talk to you whenever I had a problem are probably really pissed at me. Why didn’t you tell me? Why? Because me complaining to you isn’t really a problem, and there wouldn’t be much of anything you can do.

But anyway, I’m am feeling better. And that’s because I’m finally on a soccer team. It sucks that I didn’t make varsity or club, but I came across intramurals during the week. I played once, and I had fun. And today I heard there were more games, so I decided I’d go and check it out and volunteer to be a sub if needed.

So, a team came along and offered to let me play with them today. And at first I wasn’t sure if I was allowed because I had played on a different team earlier in the week. But since I wasn’t offically on that previous team, I could play as a sub.

And I don’t mean to brag, but I think I did pretty good. I was good enough so that the captain asked if I wanted to play on their team. I was so happy! One of their team members happened to be someone I met via club tryouts, and she said that if I didn’t play with them, they probably would have lost. Because once I started playin, I ended up assisting 3 of the four goals that were scored. I’m happeh ^_^ So I gave the captain my email and he’ll let me know when we’re playing next. But I feel better that I was good enough to be “recruited” in a sense by a captain. And I think that they’re all upperclassmen which made me feel even better.

But I’m not so depressed anymore. Though I am still depressed because I am lonely, but soccer will keep my thoughts away from that.