The Next Writing Prompt

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“Pick something that describes you and write about it:”

If I had to pick one thing that described me really well, other than me, it would have to be my star sign. No, I didn’t look up typical traits of a Scorpio one day and decide “Yes, I’m going to be just like this.” Actually, until I was in school, I had no idea what a Scorpio’s characteristics were.

What happened to get me to look it up and see for myself how I’m “the epitome of all things Scorpio” was really my mom telling me over the years how I was “very obviously” a Scorpio. One day I finally told myself “Maybe I should actually find out what she means by that.”

I would quote a paragraph or two from the couple of websites that I looked at, but it would be lame if I were to read this aloud and cite things. I’ll summarize.

I am a very intensely serious person, like the typical Scorpio should be. I usually see things in black or white, though I have my occasional grays (those are very rare though). I always see that there is a “right” and a “wrong”, and usually when I think like that, it’s during an argument when I’m ferociously trying to prove that I’m, well, right.
I’m very emotional, and no, I don’t mean that in the sense that I break down and cry or flip out easily. I mean that I’m emotional in the sense that when I feel my emotions, I really feel them with a ridiculous amount of intensity. While I hate to admit it, there are some things that I’m rather sensitive about, and it can trigger my explosive temper, and that’s usually when I make people hate me for one reason or another. And this maybe sound contradictory, while I’m quick to snap, I’ve never really truly gotten furious at somebody, or I have, but it’s very rare. The only time I can remember was once, last summer, when I punched a kid for attempting to drive away with my dad’s car.

While I’m usually quiet, I’m very observant of what goes on around me, and when I speak up it’s usually something relatively intelligent-sounding (a lot of the reason as to why I don’t usually speak in a discussion is because I take so long to decide what I want to or should say, and by the time I’m ready to say it, everyone has moved on to a different topic. Call it a bad habit, but thinking before you speak is a gift in my eyes). I know that I’m a lot of fun to be around, and that I do have an insatiable curiosity (I like surfing Wikipedia just to read and learn, for example). I also am very intuitive, and am very proud of my gut instincts, because it’s usually right. I’m resourcefully creative in some ways, especially when it comes to problem-solving, and for that reason a lot of my friends usually come to me for advice or help. I’m very stubborn when it comes to getting things I want, and I do tend to keep to myself.

When I had found this information on the net, I was initially surprised that a lot of it described me. Nowadays, I’ll joke about it; “Oh, I’m such a Scorpio,” but deep down I know that it’s true – I am the epitome of everything that is Scorpio.

Comments (0) Sep 10 2009

Changes

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Today, I decided to try something different.

I think the results are pretty good.

I’m not putting up pics until next Friday when I come home. So until you see them, or me, wallow in suspense. You’ll certainly be surprised. It’s a guarantee.

Comments (0) Nov 11 2008

Thank you BScott!!!

Posted: under All About Me, Thinking.

THANK YOU! I’m so glad that I’m not the only one who thinks this!

A friend of mine once asked me, after I told them about me being bi-racial, what do I identify with; blacks or whites? I told her; I don’t identify with either. I’m Gina before I’m anything else. She had replied to that with; you realize that everyone else will look at you and automatically say you’re black. To that, I said; well that’s because they’re stupid and can only think in categories.

I don’t understand why people see me as a certain thing, or why they expect me to identify with a certain race. Why do I have to identify with anything? Even though I’m bi-racial, if I identify with whites, will that make me a white person? If I identify with blacks, does that make me a black person? Why can’t I just be me? Gina Baker is who you should be looking at, not the color of my skin. I’m not just white, or just black, or just anything. I’m made up of many different genes from many different places and races that traveled through generations and generations until creating the person that is physically me. But that shouldn’t be something to judge me with. You learn about my personality, intellect, and opinions before you even begin to come to any conclusions about me. Things that should actually matter when deciding whether or not I’m worthy or being your friend, not my fucking skin color!

Race/color shouldn’t define who a person is, nor should anyone else define that person. That person them self should define who they are. There is no real logical reason to be taking everyone and separating them into categories; blacks, whites, Asians, etc. We’re all human. Shouldn’t that be what counts?

So, who am I? I’m Regina Ann “Gina” Baker, who lived in the city but now in the country; a freshman in college who’s a little young amongst her peers because she was homeschooled and advanced further than her peers (I’m “supposed” to be a senior in high school now) and still finds it a little hard to fit in really well; a young adult who is still afraid of truly growing up and being on her own; A daughter and sister who loves to sing and dance and spend time with her family; a caring friend who is willing to do anything for her friends; someone who finds it hard to say no, but is willing to do just that and stand up for her self when everyone has turned their backs on her; and simply a girl who is living and loving life, who appreciates what she has even though there are things she wants and still doesn’t understand, who is fascinated by the world around her and is always curious and striving to learn more, who is blessed with what gifts she’s been given, and will eventually be ready to show her self off to the rest of the world.

Comments (2) Mar 28 2008

This is My Now

Posted: under All About Me, Thinking.

So, here I am. Not too long from now after I turn this computer off, I’m going to be packing my stuff into the trunk and leaving for Ithaca. At the moment, I’m kinda really scared, but hopefully I’ll settle in fine, like Brian told me he did. Plus, I’m kinda hungry, which means I should go eat, but that can wait.

It’s kinda hard to believe that I’m actually going off to college. It’s kinda hard to believe that I’m turning 18, and that I’ve come this far. I don’t think my life was exceptionally amazing. It was mediocre, with some problems at home and with friends, but it was expected.

Sure there maybe problems htat I have, or had, in my life, but I’m the way I am because of it. If there was something I could go back and change, it would be eating more tomoatoes last night because they’re freakin delicious.

I’ve made many mistakes, and I’ve learned many lessons. And, well what do you know, I still have, like, 60-70 years to keep going. And geez, I thought 17 years was long as it was.

Looking back on it all, I’m glad things turned out the way they did. The episodes with Eva, Andy, and the most recent one with Kasedy, and my friends, like Jess, Casey, Ethan and Anthony,  helped me grow and mature, and they taught me valuable things and gave me many memories to hold onto as I move on.  I hope that I’ll get to keep them as friends, and I hope I get to make new ones. I hope that I get to find a guy who I’ll be able to stay with for the rest of my life. I hope that I’ll be successful and prosperous and that I will have many happy days. But most of all, Ihope that I’ll continue to have as much love in my life as I do now. I’m so glad that everone around me is supporting me with what I do. I hope that while I’m gone, the support won’t ever lessen. And I hope you all will be thinking of me, just like I’ll be thinking of you.

I love you Mom and Dad, for being there for me whenever I needed it. There have always be arguements, but if we never fought then something would be wrong. I love you Kimmie for becoming one of my best friends. I hope that I won’t end up wanting the Mangekyo Sharigan (running gag between me and her), you “foolish little sister.”  I love my brothers, and although I don’t really spend alot of time with either, I’ll miss them both. Derek, even though you’re always pissing me off to no end, I’ll miss you too and I love you too :)

Jessica, you have become one of my best friends. You’re really someone I can talk to about anything, and I know that I can trust you. I hope you’ll think of me, and don’t forget me, and I’ll be thinking of you. Tell Ethan I said hi :) Ethan, Casey, and Anthony, you three are the best. I only just got to really know you three right before I leave, and it sucks that I won’t be seeing you till around my birthday. But I’ll be thinking of you guys and all the good times. And, yes, I’ll go to a couple of parties for your sakes :)

Everyone else, I love you all. Thank you so much for being in my life, because I’m sure my life would be very dull if you weren’t in it.

I’ll be thinking of you all.

Comments (2) Aug 26 2007

Something Distrubing About Myself

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I was thinking about it, and I’ve been thinking about it for a little while. And I realized, if I really wanted to, I could get an eating disorder.

I work at Joe’s and Vinny’s right? Before that I weighed, like, 118 or 120. Now I weigh about 130. And I don’t know why I feel this way, but I feel extremely fat, and I really want to go back down to 120, and my mind keeps saying “Just don’t eat alot! You’ll lose weight that way!” And, I’ve been cutting back on eating and changing my diet around. But it still feels like I just wanna stop eating, at least until I get back down to what I was before. And I’m sitting here, right now, thinking that “omg I’m so fucking fat! I need to lost this weight!!!” I don’t know, it’s really kinda freaky, and I guess I’ll have to be careful with that.

So, if anyone notices that I look really bony, make me eat something.

Comments (1) Feb 23 2007

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